I just want to help,
But my futile explanations,
Wring dizzily on the air.
Saying nothing but I'm sorry.
I try so hard,
To no avail.
What is there to do?
But keep searching.
I know the pain you suffer.
Yet I can only observe,
Through hearts tearing,
So swiftly.
Fragile apologies.
Amount to pitying distress,
But its all that I can do.
I'm so desperate for answers.
That I know will never come.
So why do I try?
I guess,
Its love.
Like melting crayons
Or the smell of peroxide
Well, I like her more than myself…
She fills my heart
With colors jumping
When I'm with her
I Beam
And she acts the same
All floats away
Until there's nothing else
But us.
Like trampolines
And stars in nowhere
She reminds me that I live…
When with her problems go
As if they were melting snow
My eyes wander
Only to her
My songs sing
Only to bring
Her joy.
Like razor blades
Or sleeping pills
Well, I like her enough to die…
And I tell no lies
I would bear it all myself
If she could say
That she
Wants to live
I just want to help,
But my futile explanations,
Wring dizzily on the air.
Saying nothing but I'm sorry.
I try so hard,
To no avail.
What is there to do?
But keep searching.
I know the pain you suffer.
Yet I can only observe,
Through hearts tearing,
So swiftly.
Fragile apologies.
Amount to pitying distress,
But its all that I can do.
I'm so desperate for answers.
That I know will never come.
So why do I try?
I guess,
Its love.
Oh insanity!
Sweet surrender to the void
My mind dripping
In random
No drops the same
Thoughts mangling
Memories rearranged
I've fought the battle
But I will lose the war
Sooner or later
Sanity will vacate the premises
And only lunacy
Will replace this
Logic thrown to the wind
Delusions set in
It only takes a feather
To tip the scale
My barriers will hold
But my will shall fail
And I will rot
Pleading justice
To no avail
Oh insanity!
To you I hail.
Looping side holes
Loving prairie voles
Metal rapping
Nooses tapping
Lads a strapping
Nothing knocks my door
People seating
Creeds a kneading
Yet I've seen it all before
Pride centers
Demise enters
No ones keeping score
Worlds a wasting
Children tasting
Something newer than before
Cries watering
Eyes mottling
Just a dollar more
Ends ceasing
The Man pleasing
Only quiets the roar
What I'm saying
Needs untangling
Come knock my door
Current Residence: the stratosphere Operating System: Crap 2000 (Lame Edition) MP3 player of choice: ipod Shell of choice: chocolate Favourite cartoon character: Naota Personal Quote: dont rely on your own understanding
Favourite Visual Artist
the honest ones
Favourite Movies
donnie darko, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Frankly, i have not had a creative spark in a while. it troubles me deeply. I feel it coming back though, I really do. I guess ever since i dumped that succubus of a human being katie pettet i am gaining back my identity. A grudging sixteen year old with an unhealthy addiction to FFTA2 is what i am and i would not have it any other way.
Stuff i wrote in the month of february, not good enough to submit:
Feb. 2
So long it seems
Luke warm eulogy
Why am I so happy?
None come from meaning
Tears by force I must persuade
It must not of hit me then
But now I feel it
Tears well again.
Feb.13
I said it in passion
Not my normal fashion
She seemed so impressed
My love not suppressed
All things clearer now
I don't see how
Oh it felt so good
I knew it would
The words were my release
All doubts came to cease
Love was there
Oh what a beautiful snare!
Feb. 14: Valentines Day
I see rose hips dotting my school hallways
The reconstructed sums given in love
But now on